Will 2years plus Relationship fade so easily? or it is just my thinking.
we are like stranger more than couple.
we have lose communication.
we almost have a small quarrel each time we met.
i think he is tired of quarreling with me.
thats why he dont even wanna go out with me anymore?

how can a boyfriend push his own girlfriend to other guy?
is because he really dont love me anymore?
or wanted me to find another boyfriend?
my heart is aching where he is trying to push me to other guy.
does he know i am afraid of losing him?
i have already fall too deep into the well.
there is no ways i can climb up.

he almost everyday go out with friends and
when he told me, i just ask him go accompany his friend.
when reach home then give me a call. no matter how late i also will wait
just to hear his voice before i go to bed.

our phone converstion is getting shorter and shorter from few hours to now 1 min.

i forcing myself to work, to play game to stop thinking about it.
when the moment i stop i will think back again.
that is where my tear will flow out.

thanks for friend around me for your care and concern.
i am alright. i just wanna have some space to rant.
which is my personal blog.

sorry to those who invited me to their christmas celebration:
i dont think i will be celebrating christmas this year.
will go work to make myself busy :)

Labels: emotion entry