5th day of break up.

yesterday night was clearing my drawer thing as moving house.
saw alot of things related to him :(

; movie tickets which we watched together.
; valentine day's present (the fake roses).
; my birthday's present (the drawing by him).
; his birthday's present which leave it with me.
; twilight the moon novel he brought for me :(

pack all those stuffs then going to return him.
but i dunno when he is coming down to collect from me.

those stitch he brought for me i am not going to throw away as its very important to me :(
esp the baby stitch which follow me and accompany me sleep for 2 years.
he always told me that baby stitch is him :( but i know its not him anymore.

this morning memories flash thru my mind.
the first time i meet him at tampines gv for "License To Wed" movie
after movie we went long john silver for dinner and took bus to white sand.
as he bring me to a shop to buy "harshbrown pancake"
thats his favourite during army days. he will always buy before booking in.
after that shop around there till night time he send me home :(
that is our first date

and i cried after this memories flash thru my mind.

my mum kept asking what really hapen to us that make him break up.
when i was telling her halfway i cried :( because i really cannot control it.

reading thru all those entries i have blog last 2 years plus about us :(
time really fly very fast. 2 years plus of relationship ended like this.

i really love him alot :(
but he dont love me anymore.
there is nothing i can do about it.

*crying*