Why Is it so hard to find someone to care and love me?

Each time I started to have feeling with the guy, I always hope that we will have at least a chance to be together..

End up it wasn't like what I hoped for.
I have no one to celebrate Christmas with, like today.
(25 dec 2011)

It makes me so envy that most of my friends are enjoying themselves..

I am such a failure . . .

(I can't sleep at this time, I wanna drink!)

Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas :)